[ Unlike Michel, that first time he bathed and dried Elio like a child, Lucifer doesn't make him nervous when he looks at him, at his body, Elio doesn't feel insecure about his cut cock, completely spent now, give him twenty-four hours to recover, please, or the way his asshole's sticky from a heavy mixture of lube and cum, maybe a little blood, it's difficult to avoid, really, when you're as big as Lucifer and let go quite so thoroughly near the end. Elio smiles while the other man washes him off, the spray doing most of the work, although Lucifer bends him over slightly to clean out between his buttocks, gently touching his shoulders, before releasing him. It's the gaze the other man has, which is self-contradictory considering the fire he carries in there, a little bit of Hell, travel size, it makes Elio feel seen rather than judged and seeing as he has spent most of his life under scrutiny, there's freedom to the way Lucifer and in extension, his realm, just lets Elio be, have, take up space. He values it, greatly. ]
It was a pleasure.
[ He says, half-laughing as Lucifer corporally moves him from one spot in the bathroom to another, like he weighs nothing and of course he doesn't, not to him, glancing around to see the tiles move fast beneath his feet, feeling weightless and light-headed and happy. Once he's put down some feet outside the stall, he grabs the towels that have materialized near the sink, starting to dry off, keeping his eyes on Lucifer while doing so, framed in on all sides by the huge shower stall, wings spread and huge and wet. ]
All manners of speaking.
[ He shakes off like a bird in a bird bath. Normally Elio wouldn't make this comparison, because Lucifer isn't a bird, obviously, but he's tired and worn out and he wants to sleep. So, bird it is. Which is awkward, because Elio's pretty sure that if his cock could manage anything right now, he'd be hard again. He shakes his head at himself, grabbing a clean towel and holding his arms out for the other man as he puts his wings away. ]
[ Elio's dried himself off in the meantime, looking very warm and soft against all the white and gold of the bathroom. Lucifer steps out of the shower stall, only just refraining from shaking his head - the water's practically everywhere and his hair feels incredibly heavy. At Elio's words, he smiles, surprised. ]
Yes, of course. Yes.
[ He pads over to him and holds out his hands, giving him free range to go wild with that lovely towel of his. His gaze, meanwhile, tracks from Elio's familiar features to what's beyond the bathroom door - the bed, out of view, and the windows to the fields beyond. The white panels and tall walls, palace-like, yes, but also like... a French villa, yes, something that they could've found in Paris in the most expensive arrondissements. It's been a long while since Lucifer last visited Paris. He would've liked to take Elio there, if they'd... well. If they'd had the chance, you might say.
Seems like they'll have to built their sand castles down here instead.
A part of him still resents the idea of Elio, stuck down here for eternity, creating light and beauty because this place is so totally, thoroughly devoid of it on its own. Away from his family, friends... Away from a mortal existence, too, with a clear start and stop. This is obviously not as horrible as it could be - if Elio can create this, he might possibly, given time, be capable of creating anything - but it's still not Earth. It's not Heaven, either.
And it never will be.
His voice is quiet now, a little bit raw around the edges: ]
Do you... do you think you'll regret coming here?
[ There's obviously no way for Elio to know, no promises he can make that wouldn't be potential lies and Lucifer corrects himself quickly, hating his own weakness: ]
[ Lucifer moves across the tiles, all dripping and wet, his hair in his eyes and sticking to his forehead. He holds his hands out, you're allowed, it says along with his actual words and Elio steps up to him, raising both hands and wrapping the towel around the top of his head, though he has to get on his toes to reach, beginning to dry his hair off first, soft swipes down across his face, eyes out of sight, prominent nose, tender lips. Once he's stopped the worst dripping from his hair, Elio continues on to his shoulders, round rubbing motions of the towel, front and what he can reach of his back without turning him around.
Do you think you'll regret coming here, Lucifer asks, sounding like a young child asking their playmate, staying for the night, whether they think they'll get homesick. Elio looks up at him, open face, features understanding, while he dries off his abdomen, top of his thighs, crotch, gently. To reach the bottom parts of his legs, Elio crouches down at his feet and dries him off there as well, looking up at him, along the long expanses of his naked body, looking warm and a little bit flustered in the golden light. He's so beautiful. Elio's always been entranced by beautiful things. ]
It's not an unfair question. [ Elio shakes his head slowly, drying off Lucifer's feet, big feet, fitting. ] We can both have our doubts about this arrangement, how it'll work. Do I think I'll get homesick? Yes. Do I think I'll sometimes question what kind of life I left behind? Yes. Do I think I'll regret coming here to be with you? No. Those things aren't mutually exclusive, Lucifer.
[ A pause. He remains seated by the other man's feet, just looking up at him, the way you would marvel at a marble statue on a pedestal, except Lucifer is not a pedestal man, he's anything but and Elio gets that. He gets it. Carrying on, his voice softens: ]
I can feel all those things. Just like you can. The doubt as well as the certainty.
[ Slowly, he rises to his feet again, stepping around the other man to dry off his back, motions stil soft and gentle, no hurry. Once he's done, he stops by Lucifer's left shoulder, leaning up to kiss his upper arm where it curves into the slope of shoulder proper. It's a hard part of his body. While simultaneously being a very soft part. Elio likes that contrast. That complexity. He recognizes it in himself. No, he doesn't think he'll regret it, not even once. He may doubt and question and wonder, but regret? Never.
Does that mean he's actually in Heaven, here? He smiles, dropping the towel. Honestly, he thinks it might. ]
[ Lucifer leans into him a little because he doesn't want to help himself. It's so nice, the feel of Elio drying him off with as much care as he does all other things, his touch gentle, unassuming, the kind that doesn't demand. He tilts his head sideways a little and shuts his eyes as the other man works his way down his body, breathing deeply, taking in his touch as well as his words. Humans are so ridiculously complicated, aren't they, what they feel, how they feel it. To Lucifer, there's very little difference between questioning your choices and regretting them but of course, in his existence, what difference there might be has never mattered before. The cost was always too great, in the end.
He opens his eyes and looks straight ahead as Elio kisses his upper arm near the slope of his shoulder, his lips warm. Soft. Yes, to humans, there is always death and consequently, a limit to the price they'll eventually have to pay, inevitably, no matter what life they've led. They can afford all these relativities. Can Elio, now, in this place? When an eternity has passed, will those fine details truly matter to him?
Should they?
Breathing out harshly, he turns around as Elio drops the towel. Then, without further ado, he picks him up again because the other man might've taken the lead on drying them off but he must still be exhausted, all things considered. Orgasms. Leaving Earth. Seeing his father's hell loop. Lots of heavy weight for one, little human mind. So, Lucifer carries him, bridal style, into the bedroom, leaving the towels and the steamed-up mirrors behind for now. The bed is huge, far bigger than Elio who'll look too small on it, really. Too small. But he'll be comfortable. Maybe that's what truly matters.
Lucifer pulls back the covers and puts him down, gently. Pulls the covers up to his waist, leaving him to arrange them as he wishes, if he wants. He thinks about staying, about sleeping, maybe forever - maybe he wouldn't even have to leave, maybe time doesn't pass out there. But then, of course, Elio would've left for naught and that'll never be - so Lucifer leans in and kisses his temple, nuzzling his hair very briefly before straightening up.
Then, he turns away, gaze fixed on the other side once again. ]
[ The only response he gets is Lucifer turning around towards him and picking him up, easily, because Elio will always be feathers between his arms and he's going to venture the guess that the feathers he caries on his back weigh more, even. He carries him, like a bride over the threshold of a newly purchased house, to the bed, Elio watching the tall walls of his castle or whatever word he'll end up using about this place, home, presumably, at some point, shake a little for each step the other man takes, the movements jostling Elio a bit in his arms. He leans his forehead against Lucifer's upper arm, strong and steady, thinking that it really is the myth of Persephone in an Abrahamic and little less heteronormative packaging, the two of them. The Lord of the Underworld and his bride. His queen. Yet, Elio wasn't abducted, he wasn't forced, no matter how much Lucifer might worry himself with these thoughts. Elio chose to come here by himself. Lucifer only gave him that choice.
And what a choice.
Looking up at the high ceilings above his head, basking in a light that's slightly warmer now than when they arrived, as if hours have passed, although Elio's reasonably convinced they haven't been at it for that long, he thinks about his father's loop of regret, he thinks about the books he threw out, already wondering what to put there instead. It feels extremely significant, not only because Elio is getting the feeling this will be an integral part of his function down here, but because. It's his father. It's his father. And this is Lucifer, tugging him in, pulling the covers up to his waist, Elio burying into them the rest of the way. He's exhausted. If he's going to help Lucifer or his father or anyone else, he needs rest. He isn't more celestial than that.
Eyes falling slowly shut, he feels Lucifer's lips against his temple, a hint of stubble where his chin is pressing against his skin and Elio smiles when the other man nuzzles into his hair. He feels so immensely loved, even as Lucifer straightens up and turns away, about to leave.
Michel was wrong, about Lucifer, about Lucifer's feelings for him. As he'll discover when he gets here. For some reason, it isn't a frightening thought, how Elio just senses vividly that it's what's going to happen. He won't be there to close the other man's eyes on Earth, but maybe he'll be here to close his eyes in Hell.
Maybe that's going to be a good thing for everyone involved. ]
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
no subject
It was a pleasure.
[ He says, half-laughing as Lucifer corporally moves him from one spot in the bathroom to another, like he weighs nothing and of course he doesn't, not to him, glancing around to see the tiles move fast beneath his feet, feeling weightless and light-headed and happy. Once he's put down some feet outside the stall, he grabs the towels that have materialized near the sink, starting to dry off, keeping his eyes on Lucifer while doing so, framed in on all sides by the huge shower stall, wings spread and huge and wet. ]
All manners of speaking.
[ He shakes off like a bird in a bird bath. Normally Elio wouldn't make this comparison, because Lucifer isn't a bird, obviously, but he's tired and worn out and he wants to sleep. So, bird it is. Which is awkward, because Elio's pretty sure that if his cock could manage anything right now, he'd be hard again. He shakes his head at himself, grabbing a clean towel and holding his arms out for the other man as he puts his wings away. ]
Come here. I'll dry you off.
no subject
Yes, of course. Yes.
[ He pads over to him and holds out his hands, giving him free range to go wild with that lovely towel of his. His gaze, meanwhile, tracks from Elio's familiar features to what's beyond the bathroom door - the bed, out of view, and the windows to the fields beyond. The white panels and tall walls, palace-like, yes, but also like... a French villa, yes, something that they could've found in Paris in the most expensive arrondissements. It's been a long while since Lucifer last visited Paris. He would've liked to take Elio there, if they'd... well. If they'd had the chance, you might say.
Seems like they'll have to built their sand castles down here instead.
A part of him still resents the idea of Elio, stuck down here for eternity, creating light and beauty because this place is so totally, thoroughly devoid of it on its own. Away from his family, friends... Away from a mortal existence, too, with a clear start and stop. This is obviously not as horrible as it could be - if Elio can create this, he might possibly, given time, be capable of creating anything - but it's still not Earth. It's not Heaven, either.
And it never will be.
His voice is quiet now, a little bit raw around the edges: ]
Do you... do you think you'll regret coming here?
[ There's obviously no way for Elio to know, no promises he can make that wouldn't be potential lies and Lucifer corrects himself quickly, hating his own weakness: ]
Never mind, that's an unfair question.
no subject
Do you think you'll regret coming here, Lucifer asks, sounding like a young child asking their playmate, staying for the night, whether they think they'll get homesick. Elio looks up at him, open face, features understanding, while he dries off his abdomen, top of his thighs, crotch, gently. To reach the bottom parts of his legs, Elio crouches down at his feet and dries him off there as well, looking up at him, along the long expanses of his naked body, looking warm and a little bit flustered in the golden light. He's so beautiful. Elio's always been entranced by beautiful things. ]
It's not an unfair question. [ Elio shakes his head slowly, drying off Lucifer's feet, big feet, fitting. ] We can both have our doubts about this arrangement, how it'll work. Do I think I'll get homesick? Yes. Do I think I'll sometimes question what kind of life I left behind? Yes. Do I think I'll regret coming here to be with you? No. Those things aren't mutually exclusive, Lucifer.
[ A pause. He remains seated by the other man's feet, just looking up at him, the way you would marvel at a marble statue on a pedestal, except Lucifer is not a pedestal man, he's anything but and Elio gets that. He gets it. Carrying on, his voice softens: ]
I can feel all those things. Just like you can. The doubt as well as the certainty.
[ Slowly, he rises to his feet again, stepping around the other man to dry off his back, motions stil soft and gentle, no hurry. Once he's done, he stops by Lucifer's left shoulder, leaning up to kiss his upper arm where it curves into the slope of shoulder proper. It's a hard part of his body. While simultaneously being a very soft part. Elio likes that contrast. That complexity. He recognizes it in himself. No, he doesn't think he'll regret it, not even once. He may doubt and question and wonder, but regret? Never.
Does that mean he's actually in Heaven, here? He smiles, dropping the towel. Honestly, he thinks it might. ]
no subject
He opens his eyes and looks straight ahead as Elio kisses his upper arm near the slope of his shoulder, his lips warm. Soft. Yes, to humans, there is always death and consequently, a limit to the price they'll eventually have to pay, inevitably, no matter what life they've led. They can afford all these relativities. Can Elio, now, in this place? When an eternity has passed, will those fine details truly matter to him?
Should they?
Breathing out harshly, he turns around as Elio drops the towel. Then, without further ado, he picks him up again because the other man might've taken the lead on drying them off but he must still be exhausted, all things considered. Orgasms. Leaving Earth. Seeing his father's hell loop. Lots of heavy weight for one, little human mind. So, Lucifer carries him, bridal style, into the bedroom, leaving the towels and the steamed-up mirrors behind for now. The bed is huge, far bigger than Elio who'll look too small on it, really. Too small. But he'll be comfortable. Maybe that's what truly matters.
Lucifer pulls back the covers and puts him down, gently. Pulls the covers up to his waist, leaving him to arrange them as he wishes, if he wants. He thinks about staying, about sleeping, maybe forever - maybe he wouldn't even have to leave, maybe time doesn't pass out there. But then, of course, Elio would've left for naught and that'll never be - so Lucifer leans in and kisses his temple, nuzzling his hair very briefly before straightening up.
Then, he turns away, gaze fixed on the other side once again. ]
no subject
And what a choice.
Looking up at the high ceilings above his head, basking in a light that's slightly warmer now than when they arrived, as if hours have passed, although Elio's reasonably convinced they haven't been at it for that long, he thinks about his father's loop of regret, he thinks about the books he threw out, already wondering what to put there instead. It feels extremely significant, not only because Elio is getting the feeling this will be an integral part of his function down here, but because. It's his father. It's his father. And this is Lucifer, tugging him in, pulling the covers up to his waist, Elio burying into them the rest of the way. He's exhausted. If he's going to help Lucifer or his father or anyone else, he needs rest. He isn't more celestial than that.
Eyes falling slowly shut, he feels Lucifer's lips against his temple, a hint of stubble where his chin is pressing against his skin and Elio smiles when the other man nuzzles into his hair. He feels so immensely loved, even as Lucifer straightens up and turns away, about to leave.
Michel was wrong, about Lucifer, about Lucifer's feelings for him. As he'll discover when he gets here. For some reason, it isn't a frightening thought, how Elio just senses vividly that it's what's going to happen. He won't be there to close the other man's eyes on Earth, but maybe he'll be here to close his eyes in Hell.
Maybe that's going to be a good thing for everyone involved. ]