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« I am thinking of you. I love you, play. » ([personal profile] solosection) wrote2030-07-27 04:14 pm
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factuallysatan: (once you realise)

[personal profile] factuallysatan 2021-10-16 12:56 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Elio follows his initiative, the way he's done always (as long as always is, between them - hundreds of years now, to Lucifer, though the past many have been played out only by memory) and when he slips his hand into the pocket of his suit jacket, all playful and sweet and unpretentious, the ache in Lucifer's chest intensifies, becomes heavy, like he shouldn't by rights be capable of breath. It can't be fixed, can it says Elio and looks up at him, expression open. Prepared, too. For being told no and goodbye and never, all those expectations of hurt that Lucifer hadn't wanted for him.

Not again.

He shakes his head, though what he says is: ]


It can. [ A scowl. ] 'Fixed' might not be the right term, however.

[ Continuing on, past the pomegranate trees, he can smell the sea not too far away. Hear it too, the gentle sway of the waves, the way the water laps at the shore. Eats away at it, too, in bits and pieces, too tiny to see but not to comprehend. He closes his eyes and imagines Elio down there, with him, in the darkness, ash gathering in his curls whilst Hell tries to seep into him, too, and turn him to something worse than stone.

Tears prickling in the corner of his eyes, he wipes his face angrily with his free hand and leans in against Elio. He looks away because that's all he dares, forcing the next words past his lips. ]


If you were to - [ Pause. Breathe. ] - to follow me down, the loops may be restored. The barrier between Hell and Earth, solidified.

[ He finally looks at the other man, his eyes still shining and wet. ]

I felt it. Calling for you. [ And harsher: ] This is all my fault.
factuallysatan: (gratuitously shirtless)

[personal profile] factuallysatan 2021-10-16 02:10 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Elio turns towards him and cups his cheeks with his fingers, holding him between his hands and there's something very appropriate about that thought, about the other man holding pretty much everything that he is. Lucifer stares at him as Elio apparently gets it without any further explanations though he doesn't seem particularly bothered. Will we be able he asks, like his presence down there might just be a foregone conclusion and Lucifer wants to scream, upwards, he wants to tear the sky apart. Of course, sweet Elio who follows him in all things between them, of course. Of course, he'd do this thing as well, this perverse, terrible, thing.

Shaking, Lucifer pulls away, not as gently as he ought. He steps past Elio and stops, less than two feet away, gaze locked on the sea in the distance, the horizon stretching wide beyond it. He flew Elio out across the bay in L.A., back when he'd been hurt by his ex-lover. They'd watched the pier light up and he'd been warm in Lucifer's arms, warm and small. Protected, he'd thought.

And even down there, surely, he would be.

Except Lucifer had sworn he'd fix this and he hasn't. ]


You've already... [ He breaks off. Tries again, his voice not as harsh now, nowhere near accusing: ] Elio, you can't possibly want this. I'm not even certain how it would work - what it would be like. Whether it might swallow you up.

[ He shakes his head, running both hands through his hair in agitation. Some of it has started curling a little; the hair products down in Hell aren't worth much, as with all other commodities. ]

It's an awful place.
factuallysatan: (wiser words darling)

[personal profile] factuallysatan 2021-10-16 03:49 pm (UTC)(link)
[ He hears the steadiness in Elio's voice, the clarity. He's never harsh or authoritative, no, but he does know what he wants, what he doesn't. He's capable of making perfectly legitimate, sensible choices. Lucifer knows. He trusts him more than... well. He does.

He does.

When the other man steps up closer to him and rubs his shoulder, his fingers slipping up to his neck as he speaks and nudging his panicked hands out of the way, Lucifer slumps a bit where he stands, crossing his arms in front of himself mostly to give that last bit of tension, that darkness coiled in his chest, some sort of exit route. At the feel of Elio's fingertips running through his hair, brushing over his scalp and setting each strand a-right (not unlike what he used to do when he'd groom his wings), Lucifer closes his eyes. Stands there silently for a long while, simply letting the calm of Elio's decisiveness, the quiet around them, seep into his nervous system. The trees around them rustle and further down, the sea rolls in, again and again.

Finally, Lucifer reaches into his pocket and brings out the long piece of silver that materialized amongst Mazikeen's weapons one day, out of nowhere, a few days into his arrival back in Hell. It looks like a link-less armband, maybe, except it comes without locks and without any sort of adornments. She'd come up to his throne, flapping it at his face and looking completely, utterly disturbed - after all, she'd said, if I'm supposed to torture anyone with this thing, I'm not even sure where I'd put it or why. He'd taken it and thought little of it for a while until slowly but surely, data started piling up whilst Amenadiel researched. He'd had Ella's help, apparently; she'd figured out the truth whilst doing her own little investigation into Cain's death - that little woman won't let herself be fooled for long.

In any case. He looks it over, eyebrows furrowed. It's shiny, true, but otherwise pretty unremarkable.

As he leans back against Elio a little, however, it folds from between his fingers and stretches out to its full length, seemingly trying to crawl through the air and around Lucifer. Within long, it's flat-out struggling, trying to crawl up his arm, under his hand, wriggling like a snake between his fingers.

Trying, desperately, to get to Elio.

It's true, then, isn't it. ]


The conditions are unclear.

[ He grabs it between both hands and it twitches pathetically between his fingers. Turning, dislodging Elio's fingers in the process, he holds it out between them. He can feel it buzzing at the sight of the other man, this thing, glittering in the sun. ]

One day, this simply existed.

[ A small smirk, half-hearted. Worried. ]

And apparently, it's been quite lonely without you.
Edited 2021-10-16 15:50 (UTC)
factuallysatan: (waitaminute this won't get us drunk)

[personal profile] factuallysatan 2021-10-16 05:23 pm (UTC)(link)
[ The silver bracelet - because it is one, apparently - practically jumps into Elio's waiting hands, snaking up his arm to lie against his wrist, curled up snugly. Lucifer feels oddly at peace at the sight of it. Which... probably means that he's somehow affected by its presence which is just fine, obviously, like he's not already much too affected by everything, ever. He sighs. Meets Elio's gaze, looking as he settles with the bracelet, with whatever it does to him whilst attached. Something changes with his appearance, too, something that wouldn't be immediately obvious to anyone not celestial. But to Lucifer, Elio suddenly loses all traces of otherness.

Like he's been family all along.

Would you look at that. ]


It's you, I think. An extension of you, the way you are.

[ A half-smile. ]

To me.

[ Remarkable, yes. A good word. He brushes his fingers over the bracelet, feeling it humming in response. Then, quite easily, he completes the movement by sliding his hand over Elio's knuckles, fingers, before linking their hands. Something powerful and very familiar surges through him and his wings unfurl at it, snapping out to either side. They aren't quite as impressive-looking as they could be - when he left, they'd been groomed to perfection but in Hell, well, that's not an option. He's done the best he could with a Hell-loop-created shower but all the same, they are... not at their best.

They still take up quite a lot of space, like, enough for him to whack his flight feathers against a pomegranate tree, a couple of fruits tumbling to the ground a split second later.

He pouts a little.

Thanks Dad, for making him wear the most infuriatingly stupid appendages in the known bloody universe. ]
factuallysatan: (ever-so-slightly see-through)

[personal profile] factuallysatan 2021-10-16 06:00 pm (UTC)(link)
[ There's something about Elio's face, about the light shining within his eyes, beneath his skin, that feels realer than anything else he's ever encountered. Like they're a matched set, him and Elio, his own wings glittering faintly in the sun as well, durable still, despite all that's come before. For the first time, he looks at Elio, wearing that bracelet, and thinks that maybe... maybe...

Just maybe.

Maybe this won't be another Fall.

He leans into the touch of Elio's palms, hating himself all over for that spark of hope, that foolish notion that maybe this really is what it looks like, maybe Elio is supposed to traverse both worlds to keep the balance because the ruler of Hell can no longer rule alone. Amenadiel had been quite certain, last they spoke. It's all the talk up in the Silver City, too, an all-consuming question for his family when they'd but given up upon the answer. Has Samael been forgiven at last?

Picking Elio up in his arms, Lucifer leans in and kisses him. It's a long, slow kiss, simply lips against lips at first before he dips his tongue inside briefly, to get that taste back in his mouth. Maybe it's been two hundred years and that's why everything feels like more, now, like an emphasis. But it does. Elio feels like himself times a hundred, his taste and scent shooting straight into Lucifer's bloodstream. He closes his eyes and holds him close.

Giving his Father yet another chance - another touch of faith, always another, even now - Lucifer dives downwards, clutching Elio to his chest and taking them both away, down and down, beyond the Earth. ]