[ It takes Elio a long moment this time, looking down and up, brown curls shading his brown eyes and everything about him has always seemed so warm and gentle, easily traded and easily taken. Maybe that's what the other man's starting to realise now, that he's sold himself too cheaply despite all his best intentions and that's what happens, of course, when somebody else puts a value on you before you've managed to form your own opinions on the matter. Jean Louis suddenly wishes he'd punched Oliver's stupid eye all the way into its fucking socket. Would've suited him. Would've made him look a lot cheaper.
Don't make me return to that he says and Jean Louis wants to ask, to what because he suddenly can't tell - to this place, to his job in Paris? To his job? His life? Don't make me. If he'd been out to play Elio, if he'd wanted to pull his strings like a marionette the way he sometimes does with people because he likes to know that they can't tell, this would've made him feel powerful. This small card - don't make me - is worth all of Elio's self-control, all of his pride and his hopes and his dreams.
If you give people power, under most circumstances they will take it.
He exhales, slowly and evenly. ]
Don't say that.
[ He crosses over to him, quiet steps, unhurried, and folds his arms around the other man's shoulders, pulling him in against his chest a little and running one hand slowly up between his shoulder blades. Retracing his own steps, this time. ]
Make yourself do what you want, Elio. [ He kisses his forehead, curls bouncing around his lips. ] I've put out my hand, haven't I? Take it if you like.
[ It bursts out of him, no pause, nothing. Not even an inhalation, exhale, nothing. Just his voice, whispering, shaking. He leans in against Jean Louis when the other man folds his arms around him, tracing his old patterns on Elio’s back, the lines of comfort he’s lain there. Foundation, Elio thinks and smiles, tiredly, but true. This is his foundation now. Jean Louis kissing his forehead amidst all those unruly curls that his government can’t govern in their wildness, Elio has to take responsibility for that.
Feels nice. Kiss. And responsibility.
Slowly reaching up, he slips his arms around the other man’s waist and steps closer to him, so close their chests are touching, pressing up against each other and something about this intimacy makes the weight on his chest lessen, the ache in his heart shrink. And as those factors turn little, Elio becomes big, grows back into his skin, into the holster of his body. I’m taking myself back, he wants to tell Jean Louis, because it’s something Jean Louis has taught him to do. Maybe not the how’s, but the why’s.
Not the mechanics, but the laws of physics that turn the wheels. Because he’s ever the lawmaker, his foreign minister.
Suddenly feeling daring, he tips his face upwards and catches Jean Louis’s mouth with his own, it’s a chaste kiss, but the pressure of lips on lips feels familiar and wonderful, just wonderful. Homely. Elio draws back, without releasing him, just enough that they can look at each other freely. A minimum of distance. ]
There’s a piano just for me. I really like, Jean Louis.
[ Finally, something changes - no, it doesn't change, exactly, but it seems to revert. As Elio reaches up and slips his arms around his waist, he suddenly looks a little taller, a little broader and his gaze has deepened again, a different weight behind it. He stares at the other man, fascinated, completely dumbfounded as to what just happened here. He accepted his proffered hand, obviously, but since when has anyone grown taller from taking Jean Louis up on one of his offers? Since when? Since when has it ever helped anyone?
But Elio leans in and kisses him, just a soft kiss, not terribly erotic but very sweet and warm and he kisses him back, trying to mirror that feeling through it's still foreign to him. Kissing has always been for the sake of, well, sex. To start something or to end it. If he's ever been truly intimate about it, then he can't remember when or with whom - he's completely certain that Elio, on the other hand, has settled within his memories like a tree, taking root. He likes it.
It feels... nice. Someone taking root in you. ]
Then it's yours.
[ The piano, the choice, the offer. He'd thought it the other night too - he wants to give this man everything, anything he wants, though he doesn't know how to do so or how to do it well. Judging by Elio's reaction now, however, this was a decent attempt.
So he runs his hand through Elio's hair and gives him a small smile, fleeting but genuine.
They've come past yesterday, then, and this is the other side. ]
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Don't make me return to that he says and Jean Louis wants to ask, to what because he suddenly can't tell - to this place, to his job in Paris? To his job? His life? Don't make me. If he'd been out to play Elio, if he'd wanted to pull his strings like a marionette the way he sometimes does with people because he likes to know that they can't tell, this would've made him feel powerful. This small card - don't make me - is worth all of Elio's self-control, all of his pride and his hopes and his dreams.
If you give people power, under most circumstances they will take it.
He exhales, slowly and evenly. ]
Don't say that.
[ He crosses over to him, quiet steps, unhurried, and folds his arms around the other man's shoulders, pulling him in against his chest a little and running one hand slowly up between his shoulder blades. Retracing his own steps, this time. ]
Make yourself do what you want, Elio. [ He kisses his forehead, curls bouncing around his lips. ] I've put out my hand, haven't I? Take it if you like.
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[ It bursts out of him, no pause, nothing. Not even an inhalation, exhale, nothing. Just his voice, whispering, shaking. He leans in against Jean Louis when the other man folds his arms around him, tracing his old patterns on Elio’s back, the lines of comfort he’s lain there. Foundation, Elio thinks and smiles, tiredly, but true. This is his foundation now. Jean Louis kissing his forehead amidst all those unruly curls that his government can’t govern in their wildness, Elio has to take responsibility for that.
Feels nice. Kiss. And responsibility.
Slowly reaching up, he slips his arms around the other man’s waist and steps closer to him, so close their chests are touching, pressing up against each other and something about this intimacy makes the weight on his chest lessen, the ache in his heart shrink. And as those factors turn little, Elio becomes big, grows back into his skin, into the holster of his body. I’m taking myself back, he wants to tell Jean Louis, because it’s something Jean Louis has taught him to do. Maybe not the how’s, but the why’s.
Not the mechanics, but the laws of physics that turn the wheels. Because he’s ever the lawmaker, his foreign minister.
Suddenly feeling daring, he tips his face upwards and catches Jean Louis’s mouth with his own, it’s a chaste kiss, but the pressure of lips on lips feels familiar and wonderful, just wonderful. Homely. Elio draws back, without releasing him, just enough that they can look at each other freely. A minimum of distance. ]
There’s a piano just for me. I really like, Jean Louis.
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But Elio leans in and kisses him, just a soft kiss, not terribly erotic but very sweet and warm and he kisses him back, trying to mirror that feeling through it's still foreign to him. Kissing has always been for the sake of, well, sex. To start something or to end it. If he's ever been truly intimate about it, then he can't remember when or with whom - he's completely certain that Elio, on the other hand, has settled within his memories like a tree, taking root. He likes it.
It feels... nice. Someone taking root in you. ]
Then it's yours.
[ The piano, the choice, the offer. He'd thought it the other night too - he wants to give this man everything, anything he wants, though he doesn't know how to do so or how to do it well. Judging by Elio's reaction now, however, this was a decent attempt.
So he runs his hand through Elio's hair and gives him a small smile, fleeting but genuine.
They've come past yesterday, then, and this is the other side. ]